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Ann Tweedy

The Beheading

Ecolit Poetry Winner

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that spring week when tribal fishermen
sold wild spot prawns, i didn’t buy any. the thought
of twisting their insect-like, antennaed heads off
as they wriggled in my sink, watching hands
and wrists through pointed eyes, was too much.
instead i buy dead shrimp farmed in clear-
cut mangrove nurseries of wild fish.
when the mangroves die, so does the land’s power
to stave off floods and hold together. then,
within four short years, farmers scrap
the shrimp farms of thailand and vietnam–
as soon as feces and unused feed
brew poison, plankton blooms suck up
oxygen, and the shrimp themselves die off,
sunk as we will be, how soon? in waste.
somehow the fact that somebody else cut
or twisted the heads off makes this bargain
worth it. when did we turn that corner
and begin to think paying someone
to do our dirty work erased consequence?
how was the courage to face our animal needs
replaced by a fear so strong we became willing
to wreak any havoc? think of henry viii refusing
to see anne boleyn before her execution.
only in his defective, human brain
could this have removed him from it.


Ann finds herself inhabiting endless conflicting and contradictory worlds—the city and the country, queer and straight, East Coast and West Coast, lawyers and poets, Indian reservations and mainstream America. Her most recent internal struggle is figuring out how to live in the 21st century without destroying nature. One of her favorite places on Earth is the Seattle Public Library.

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